April Fools

So Jimmy is making me see the Dr. I was reluctant considering it was apparent that my chances of being pregnant were slim to none. So I set out at 6:00 AM on April 1st to make my trip across town. I wondered, why am I even bothering? The Dr. informs me that given my history, I probably have developed cysts which excrete testosterone causing my cycle to halt. He took my blood and told me he would call me later.

Other than being April Fools day, I was excited about this day because my laser hair removal appointment was here! When I arrived for my appointment, the Dr's visit nine hours earlier was as far away from my mind as the seminar I gave at work earlier that morning. I was promptly seated in a treatment chair where the nurse applied a numbing agent to my legs. As the medicine took affect, I completed the medical profile confidently answering NO to the last question - Are you pregnant?

The nurse returned and powered up the laser. I was creating a play list on my iPod with appropriate music to take the focus off of the pain when I heard my phone ring. Normally, I would apologize for the disruption, ignore the call and then silence my phone. But as frequently as I talk to the Dr. during IVF cycles, he has his own ring tone! It took me by surprise as I nearly forgot about the blood test regarding my cysts. I answered the phone to a nurses voice telling me the Dr. wanted to speak to me himself. Incredibly, he tells me that not only am I pregnant but that I am "mega-pregnant"!

He kept talking but all I could think about was how inappropriate this April Fools joke was. Have you ever been so mad and infuriated that you didn't know what else to do but break down in tears? I was living in that moment. Paralyzed and at a loss for words, it took every ounce of determination to pick my jaw up off of the floor and press my lips together to assemble some kind of response. I began to stutter not certain of what would come out of my mouth when I heard the words "a heartbeat". Then there was one of those very awkward pregnant pauses (no pun intended). It seemed to last forever while those words, "a heartbeat", resonated within me.